how it comes about

2009-08-24T06:00:00.001-07:00

I moved,

http://pessimistichour.livejournal.com/

but i'm not closing this down..

2009-08-21T22:50:00.000-07:00

short post.

1. PAC on monday, 30% confident
2. fasting have begun!
3. aims to lose atleast 5 kgs man.
4. gotta teach a lot of sluts next week for mes
5. gotta mug like no hair this weekend
6. dun care whatever ya wanna say abt me mugging
7. cannot sleep too late nowadays since i have to wake up extra early to get ready for pre-dawn meal
8. i'll post any updates/ important things here
9. i dunnoe why im listing this in my post like this
10. thanks for reading!

=)

oh ya, blogger you suck.

2009-08-20T07:48:00.000-07:00

ok fucking blogger having problems yet again. Maybe i shud change to livejournal or something. lemme c after the exams lor. Mugged a bit for POA just now with the usual bunch of sluts. WELL, only a bit lor.
basically we like had facebook in front of us and being such FBwhores, we could not help ourselves. did get some explanation from andeh the pro himself. i need to concentrate more of poa if i wanna do well it in. i dun want just a bloody pass. a B wud be satisfying enough. anything better, i wud treat myself to something nice. tomorrow meeting up with the same bunch of people to study again. AND i'll be a little bit more serious this time round as tomorrow is the only time left for asking anyone regarding the fucking trading, profit and loss acc and also that damn fucked up balance sheet thingy. we have ivy tomorrow and im sure she have her hands full with a lot of people not knowing what to do.

anws, here is just something random. Paramore's BNE coming out 29-09-09. like a week after the first day of RAYA. woot! maybe im gonna buy it online. cuz got voucher mah. BTW, being a total parawhore and all, i have 22 songs from them now. after getting my hands on BNE, it will be 32. Awesome. =)

to both the amirul/amirrul, haha. gua tak da carik pasal pun. gua cakap ape yg gua pk jek pe? so tak salah beb. lau lu terase, paiseh ah. =)

2009-08-18T05:54:00.000-07:00

Lets see.
Today was suppose to study for MES, well managed to do abit of revision. Haha. Only like the graph portion and abit of theory while waiting for those bloody sluts to arrive.
Today was not a bad day in my opinion.
Had a lot of laughs.
The malay guys, aka mat rep tak jadi-s lol, except matin really manage to bond much more. Lakshmi babe.
Haha. I know la. But arai and amirrul like total complete mat rep. I cmi la.
Only look like one, but am not and never be one.

Well tomorrow sluts are studying again. POA this time round. =)
lets nail this one guys.

2009-08-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

Tell me how can you sleep
How can you breathe
Baby tell me how
How you love me now

Loving me is like chewing on pearls

Those are just some of the random lines i get from songs. Will make random lines the starting of my post.

Been feeling weird this past couple of days. Not sure why. Kinda sluggish and a bit way off things.

Tmr studying with the sluts, well i hope we can study. =)

2009-08-15T08:40:00.000-07:00

wah blogger got problem. fuck.
just a quickie to update this shit. if not it will die.
i dun wan it to die. survive bloggie! SURVIVE!
LOL.
oh well.
Im happy that fucking projects are done
exams are almost upon us.
must get as much sleep before i burn midnight oil as possible.
lol.
much more time to relax now.
found something to occupy myself with tomorrow.
helping out all the sluts again.
you guys are such lucky devils to have me around. HAHA.

^^,
GOOD NITE MY READERS

2009-08-12T18:55:00.000-07:00

"I really cant believe, I lost myself again.

Looking for something crazy
Beautiful nothing now I'm talking in circles again
Never no baby are you hungry
Oh wonderful coz I am
Wonderful coz I am"

Quoted from Wonderful.

Been listening to this everyday, and quite frequently also.

OK. I AM DAMN STRESSED.

TO DO LIST:
-STUDY EHM
-FINISH UP AUTOCAD
-STUDY FOR MES
-STUDY FOR POA
-HOPE I SURVIVE FROM ALL THIS

yes. I need some time to get away from all this and just let all hang loose.

"Whatever it is now, it is useless"

2009-08-11T05:52:00.000-07:00

Damn sian, pissed off, fucked up, stressed, angry, mad, sad, silly, gg-fied, anxious, nervous, scared, afraid, frightened, terrified, dumbfounded, awed, depressed, down, blue, basically im feeling like a serious mad man now.

Poly life really sucks especially now. Exams are just like around the corner and theres a test this friday. NOt only that, poa got a dumb blog thing and autocad is SHIT!

Thank god i have company to study with. Tomorrow study date with the sluts, lets hope we get most of the things done by tmr. I cant take this stress anymore.

I NEED A MASSAGE!

2009-08-08T23:48:00.000-07:00

Yes, its time to update. Woot!

Whats has been going down so far in my life? lol. Finally the projects are done. Amazingly all 3 of them are done! Below are the pictures of the Integrated Project.

I have to say I didnt do well for this. Lol. If was because this was all rushed worked. I envy some of the work people have. LOL.

Almost the whole class wore formal this past friday. LOL. Wear so nice2 never take picture lol. Man, we shud bond more.
JOsh, the mass communications shud be held often man. LOL. That was fun.

2009-07-30T07:46:00.000-07:00

Hey there. This is what most people in my course are working on. Well I know this is a very short post, but it has a picture. That's where i'm currently at right now.

2009-07-27T07:29:00.000-07:00

Today was great. I finally felt as if I really opened up and show my true self, although CJL was to be the victim of my jokes. Lol. Was being a damn bastard today. And also for the first time in a week I don't feel emo anymore. Woo! Lol. Kinda dumb but i dunno why i felt emo, which was mentioned in my previous post. I cannot believe im revitalising this blog. Lol. Maybe this blog right here will be my companion and also will listen to whatever I say without responding even 1 single word. But thats kind of bad don't ya think so? I want atleast some advice for all my problems and sorrows.

By the way, to CJL, as posted on FB,

sorry ah jun liang, today bastard u alot.. :P was only joking la.. killing the monday blues as they say it

But that is just the tip of the iceberg guys. You don't know me that well yet. I can be much more bastard. Trust me.

2009-07-26T16:53:00.000-07:00

Life has been kinda down lately for me. Been too stressed out I guess from all the work that poly has been continuously giving us.
WTF la. Can you guys like give us a break? We are people too you know. KNN.
I hope people notice this but I have been regularly updating this blog for the sake of that fact that it is mine. LOL.
EHM is fucking finally over and done with. Fuck yeah. But two more are up ahead and I wish to get them over with as soon as possible.
On the plus side, Paramore's new album coming out soon la dey!! Woot. Maybe I'm gonna buy it on Nokia Music Store, because I still have my voucher to redeem either 8 free songs or an album from my phone I that recently bought like a month ago I suppose. KNN. : )
Im fucking happy la. Hayley Williams damn hot, but too bad she got bf, if not, wah. Maybe they have broken up or something but who knows. I have not heard any news or gossip from my beloved band.
With today, it's been 4 months that we've been in NP. I can't say that I know my m8s here too well, its only been 4 months guys. And we have like 5 and almost a quarter of this semester left. All is well i suppose. People are nice in NP. You can't judge the book but its cover basically. Just be nice and smile.
Back to my life being down. Dunno why leh. Maybe I need to speak to a counsellor or something. Or maybe there is one kind soul out there whom i can trust and also is willing to lend a listening ear to all my grieves and sorrows. LOL. Until I find that someone, I guess I should just continue what is left with my life and hopefully i'll feel better sooner or later. Till then, toodles!

2009-07-23T20:50:00.001-07:00

Today is EHM practical la dah..
Gonna die.
Chiong-ing now. Lol.
Almost finishing the powerpoint but there are some parts missing.
Need more help.
Damn stress.
This post would be endless if I were to voice out of grieves at this moment in time.
Lol.
Your mother la.

2009-07-23T05:28:00.000-07:00

KNN.. Why am I always emo nowadays? two days str8 sia....
Well people keep asking me why I get emo?
There are a few general reasons why people get emo

- Rejection
- Owned (like CJL)
- Burden of life
- Separation from a loved one
- Guilt
- Low self-esteem

There are of course more la. I can't name more right. KNN.
I don't think I emo because of anyone of these reasons, or maybe I am.
Maybe its a combination of a few of those pointers.
BTW, im kinda getting bored of CS.
Been playing kinda like everyday liao. KNNCCB. Lol.

bleh

2009-07-12T16:54:00.000-07:00

Wohoo.. I have to agree that this blog of mine is indeed dying, almost gasping for air... Well I don't want this to happen but it just happens. What can I do when I have no mood to blog at all and also I'm pretty much getting a whole lot lazier than ever before to get to Blogger and blog. Well I promise my readers that I will make an effort starting from now to get into 'blogging mode' again.

Guah Lih has made it all the way to Utah.If you're reading this, then good. Well I wish you all the best and do your parents proud man of making it into the YOG.. Crush all of their asses. I'm sure you can do it. Oh, and when you get back here, make sure you revive the class back into 'SUPER SICK MODE' again. The class is just not the same without you.

Lets recap abit of what happened last week.

Monday started out pretty fair but as soon as break time arrives, things were getting haywire. Me, Josh and Guah Lih were lying down on the benches that you would normally see in parks, zoos etc. All of a sudden Guah Lih decided to shake his body in a motion as if he was getting f*cked. It was hilarious as they Indian sweeper kept getting sights of him doing so. At one point, it turned out more outrageously hilarious when C&C walked passed us when they just came back from the lavatory. In addition to that, I was making sound effects to accompany Guah Lih's movements. Josh started bursting into laughter as she saw C&C. Mondays now are known as Monday Mayhem.

The rest of the days were pretty much normal. Then comes Friday. The day Guah Lih left Singapore. Well the atmosphere of the class drastically changed as almost all the jokes came from him at first. Without him, the 'fun' in school plummeted to basement 2. Haha. And just for the record, in my opinion, Mr Ho Nee Fun owns all for Freaky Friday last week.

Back to my current happenings. Theres so much to do in so little time. I'm very sure I can make it for both EHM and CATS.I just have to let my members know what is going on and that they don't have to get worried too much about it. I can handle it on my own.

2009-06-26T22:59:00.000-07:00

Greatly missed.

The ones I miss even more.

The ones I get to see soon.

2009-06-19T00:39:00.001-07:00

She's Back!!!!

updates..

2009-06-17T00:33:00.000-07:00

It has been about 3 days since the holidays started and it's obvious that everyone is bored, well not everyone. I know some people out there are enjoying themselves. So, good for them. I find it weird that when its 'school season' everyone is eager for holidays. On the other hand, during the holidays, some are eager for school. Like wtf? I guess that's how humans are. Hmm..

Update on my performance. The first 2 days have not been doing what I wanted to do. Keep delaying shit and I keep eating. Gonna have to cut down on this and think back on my intake.

People! I have changed my number and phone.

Old Phone: Sony Ericsson W810i (used for about 2 years)

New Phone: Nokia E63 (Ultramarine Blue)

Left one. The Sapphire Red is too common of a colour for the phone and I'm pissed I didn't get the chance to have the Black one. Damn.
Ouh, before I forget, if you don't have my new number, notify me.

I was tagged to do this quiz and so wth, I'm going to do it anyways.

1) Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
ok. It's gotta be somewhere where there is no hair on it. Eh, i gotta make it comfortable for the kisser what. Am i right?

2)How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
Gosh. It's morning. A brand new day. No need go school. Bleh!

3)Who was the last person you took a photo with?
my sister i think . . at the airport . . .

4)Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Hmm. *Looks at precise possessions*

5)Would you ever donate blood?
Sure. Unless I'm unable to do so, like if I have some disease which don't allow me to. I would love to help someone with my blood.

6)Have you had a bestfriend that was from the opposite sex?
Yeah. Lots.

7)Do you want someone dead?
If that someone really got on my nerves, yes. *thinks of a name*

8)What does your last msg say?
"Seems like you're dealt with alot of rough clients today. ok. we'll talk business again on Msn or something" sent to me by Josh. I know this was sent like a two days ago, I rarely sms people now. Wanna be at a low profile currently.

9)What are you thinking right now?
How tired I am now, How boring it is now, what would I do if I was somewhere else.

10)Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
DUH! I don't wanna laugh myself. I wanna share my laughter with the world.

11)What is the tyme you go to bed last night?
crashed in at about 12 ytd.

12)Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing right now?
Pasar Malam. Haha. That shows how cheap I am at buying clothes that I use at home.

13)Is someone on your mind?
No. Not thinking of anyone right about now.

14)Who was the last person who texted you?
It was Jun Liang. Wished him a Happy Belated Bday. (not NP junliang ah)

15) Tag 8 random people to do this survey
Tag 8 people!! WTH?!?!?!!?
ok, since i have to do it, here goes.

Josh
Arai
Fathi
Hidayah
Andy
Suliana
Amirah
Matin

16)Who is no.2 having relationship with?
Not sure. Don't wanna know about other people's personal matters. Not KPO u know.

17)Is no.3 a male or female?
Male la.

18)Say something about no.1
Sick master who will give you the best discipline. Haha. Makes me laugh in NP. Nice to be around with.

19)Is no.4 single
Again the same answer as question 16.

20)Describe no.8
Matin? Nice guy, sometimes kinda quiet, other times outburst of chi-chatting.

What a relieve..

2009-06-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

Hi to all my fellow readers.

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Ok, I think I had enough of that on this post. It's not like that is going to invade the whole of this post.

Lets do a recap of the common test and how I felt I did.
MES
I think i did fine and I managed to answer every question that I studied on par. But the graph question got me stuck and my performance was cocked up. Damn. Hope it does not cost me much.
CAD or aka AutoCAD
Wah Piang leh. I found it easy to do somehow. I was like wtf after the exam. Damn. But I did not manage to add in my name after changing to the paper mode. That's the only flaw of my drawing when I come to think of it. Hope I do well.
PAC
I managed to balance the Trial Balance but I know my answer should be wrong from all the people I asked. Fuck. Oh well. A good mark should be expected, well hopefully.
IDS
I GG for the theory part of the paper. Fuck. The drawing was done well and it took some time. Managed to add in a wall decoration thingy and also a book shelf. Hoping for a pass or more for this module. It's my favourite module after all.
EHM
Fuck! That's all I can say for now. Managed to answer 2 out of the 3 question that we had to choose well, but only had like 1 page for each answer. As the saying goes, 'Quality is much better than quantity". If so, I hope I will have a good pass.

That's all for the recap thingy.

Before I forget, I would like to say welcome to both Matin and Joshua. I'm glad to help you guys out individually in both MES and IDS. This time I help you, maybe another time its your turn to help me out.

Holidays have come like finally. I can finally have enough rest for this 2 weeks. Wanna work hard towards my goal. i will start this very Monday morning and I will Chiong like fuck man. Reall serious about this thing and I have some means of motivation in mind. I'm not only doing this for the benefit of myself, but I wanna show others out there that I can do it too. Haha. Wish me luck people.

Phew...

2009-06-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

Hey, MES was awesome yesterday as I managed to finish up most of my questions and the paper was not that bad. Although some of the questions I did not managed to figure out how on earth to do them. Regretted that I didnt spend most of my time on the graph questions, it was worth quite a lot of marks man. I just hope my goal of getting at least 75% is achieved. For today, AutoCAD was miraculously simple and I managed to do most of the things for the test. I blame myself for not paying attention when the teacher was teaching hot to add our name and stuff when we are asked to change it to the 'paper mode' thingy. Thats 10 bloody marks down the drain, well not really 10 marks since I did managed to scale the paper correctly. AutoCAD i'm not really aiming high but a good pass would be good. For me, a normal pass would be in the 60-65 marks range. A good pass is 70-80 range. I guess it's no use now thinking back on my performance on MES and AutoCAD. For now, I'm worried about my performance in EHM, IDS and PAC. PAC is tomorrow and I really want to do much better than the test we did in class not long ago. I'm aiming for atleast 85 now. Hope I get what I want, if not, I'm not gonna be dissappointed. EHM needs a lot of time, because of the theory that it has. Haiz. Theory really stinks, but who's to blame now? It's quite an interesting module if you come to think of it. IDS, the drawing part is under control, its just the theory that is really a pain in the ass la.

Ok. Two more days left till its holidays man. Woot!! I can finally relax, unwind and wake up when it is not dark. Promised myself I would do something during the holidays. I really need to stop procrastinating and really get myself to do this once and for all. Once I start, there's no turning ack to my old ways. I need to cut down on my intake and put in more output. The aim is 3-5 kilograms. You must have guessed what it is now. I'm fucking serious about losing weight. I need a different feel of what it's like to be thin, to feel my bones from my body. That's what I set my mind on and that's what I'm going to do.

Well, to end of this post, I would like to wish Syafiq and Shin Yi a BELATED Happy Birthday.

Reflections..

2009-06-06T00:51:00.000-07:00

Hey, firstly i would like to say.

Happy 17th birthday to myself! Woohoo!! and to Ivy Teo also!!
Thanks to all those who wished me yesterday and also today, and a great big thank you to her.

Well as the title of this post says, I'm gonna reflect on some things which happened during my time in school, both NP and YH.

First an foremost, I feel really blessed as to have such a great and awesome company around me in Ngee Ann. Thanks God. People like Guah Lih and Joshua really crack me up a whole lot during practicals, tutorials and lectures. Also not forgetting during break time la. These two are really fucked up minded guys. I just love to hang out with them in school. It's a really great workout for me to laugh my ass off 5 days a week.

Speaking of fucked up minds, I miss my secondary school friends like mad. Especially those who were close to me.

Muhaimin, I miss making fun of you, your parents and your whole family la basically.
Fathi, i miss your maniacal laughter.
Bulu, I miss your hairiness and also your fucking funy antics.
Joel, I miss how you were being so lame and we were secretly laughing at you being so lame. Ouh, not to forget the Joel Charts as well.
Syafiq and Kenny, I miss how funny you both were at being lazy.
Chee Kiat, I miss you reading out Yo Momma jokes.
Wei Sheng, dunno why I miss carrying you although it was irritating.

Those were the days la.
REUNION! REUNION! REUNION!

Commencement Post

2009-06-04T16:58:00.000-07:00

Hello to all my readers.
I have decided to change my blog link yet again for another time. Haha.
Why you ask?
Well I just wanted to and there are a few reasons as to why I did, which should not be mentioned.

Master Joshua, you asked me to update on my current slut-erings.
Well, here it is.
I'm currently to stressed to blog alot due to the fact that common tests are coming up next week!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
COmmon tests always give me a chill down my spine, especially when you know that you CMI la.
Well, I'm confident for IDS, since its the only module I find easy.

The museum trip on about a week ago was damn syiok. Me, Guah Lih, Jun Liang and Hakim went together.
We made our way to Plaza Sing 1stm and during the whole ride in the cab, Jun Liang was one of the most annoying bitch I've ever known.
Please stop with all your nonsense la.
Saw that ION was almost complete, although it loked very ugly and the driver even told us a few risks of the building.
If the MRT below it were to be bombed, the whole building would have a high chance of toppling down.
On the bright side, ION would be supplying jobs to 3000 people if I could remember correctly.
At Mac in Plaza Sing, saw one of the hottest girls I've seen. Wow.
The museum was awesome, although it bwas raining when we were heading there.
It was a great learning experience and I came to know more about what happened in the past.

Let me see what else should I add on.....

Oh yes. I would like to announce I'm a loner again, and no one owns me now. I can do whatever I want whenever I want. It's been nice knowing you and I wish you all the best in everything. Thanks for the time we both shared and you are a really nice person. I'm sure you deserve someone better.